I Guess This Student is Ready
Occasionally, despite all my inner work, I meet the teacher extraordinaire.
This person has the ability to help me see areas that I need to heal, in record time. I mean just a few words, and I find myself agitated. A few more words and my skin begins to crawl. Two more minutes and I am flushed and working on full scale anger.
Wow! How is this possible?
How do I react to this opportunity for healing?
First I notice myself. I feel my elevated heart rate. I notice my emotion backed energy.
Then I back away; either physically or mentally.
I make a note of all I have experienced, and I send love to my teacher.
As soon as possible, I spend time in the quiet, gently searching for clues to understanding my response.
Most importantly, I avoid the impulse (I still have at times) to berate myself for giving my power over to this other person; for allowing her to play me like a puppet.
In that regard, I have grown. I now look for the lesson, within myself. The person, I once viewed as adversarial, is now my teacher.
I am thankful for this awareness, and I am thankful for this teacher.